i want to wear a plug

i want to be pounded

i want to suck cock

i want to be forced

i want to be hypnotized

i want to be tied up

i want to be caged

i want to be peed on

i want you to have your way

i want you to control my every move

i want you to make me totally depend only on your words

i want to do as i am told

really i just want to be used up!

and very new to the site,

i saw someone that more than caught my attention,

i caught me.

i left the site and hoped for the best.

the next day,

my life changed…..

and now i feel i am on a road to freedom.

when i was looking, i had no clue.

now i know i have no clue but i feel good about whatever will happen

it will be all good!

i had to take a second peek.

as i looked again,

there was this smile and i started to drop,

there was something in the air,

i felt like i was under a spell.

hardly no words were spoken yet my will

had be taken away.

i moved and did without knowing what i had done.

that was power that only few have!

if melting is the word, then dropping is what happened.

i want that moment for ever!

to be controled totally and willing to be abused or used,

that does not matter,

just fix my eyes on the target and take me down!

i have just started trying this everyday when i am alone!

even wishing i could go outside or have someone drag

me to a secluded place!

even if i was to be infront of women, and was made fun of,

that would still be free.

i have wanted to be told what to do,

when to do it, and where to do it!

i love the idea that i am being abused for someone elses enjoyment!

naked is my tongue,

are my hands tied,

my eyes blindfolded,

my will stripped

and my changed.

naked for someone to use,

naked to show that i am nothing,

naked is my now and i hope always!

i am a man but i love women and would love to be one!

to smell, to look, to have that power!

there is a disgust for the men in the world cause they

have treated women with distain.

since i can’t change that,

i can try to be like them.

not to protect but to be apart of!

what ever will make me be humiliated then

i need to welcome that like a mat.

if i miss out,

so be it.

but now is my time to have my outside changed

to make what i want on the inside.

which is what ever the Mistress wants!

i will do and be as she says!

put away the rod and put on the dress.

i love the sound and the feel of being fucked!

someone telling the other person to do what they need to do,

and that is make me less than and take my just due.

i am less than a dog and to be taken in the back side is

what i am on earth to be about.

if i could suck my way out of this, i have tried and still will

be obedient to both the front of me and the back of me is

working in tandem!

i don’t deserve any more than that.

i have beat off until i was bleeding,

and then i did as i was told to repeat and repeat!

when the order is given,

i wanted to obey!

no matter the outcome,

i loved the play!

so if it is straight out,

just put it in,

and i will suck like there is no tomorrow!

but i don’t want to show it.

the feeling, so wanting to be feminine,

but who should know?

and when i look in the mirror i see my apendage,

but if i saw a slit, would that solve my delema?

maybe not, cause i just wanted to go for a ride!

i want to suck on the cud of another but that to

would be strange….i think…but who would know?

or what if dream of when i wake, so hard and can

it be used or should i put it away.

and look the other way as to the one i want but

need the push, and pull and mandate to do what i

should do, no matter what!

it’s all in a name… but maybe it’s only the actions of one who

dictate the future actions of another!

i need to follow or i will fail!

i need to say yes or hear the no!

i need to be conformed into the image of a lump of clay!